OKAY IM FINALLY GOING TO UPDATE MY BLOG FOR...................3456789098765432465789'TH TIME AFTER A VERY LONG TIME. i am very sleepy.. there. an update.

LONG WEEKEND :D hahha UP IS AWESOME! ESPECIALLY THE 3D ONE! went to watch yesterday with dad, sis and bro. ANYWAY. i have chinese tuition in like.. 2 minutes and i figured that i should like update. this blog is like CLOSE to dying. heh heh heh. yea... church later onnnn damn annabella not going for mass. so i'm stuck with boredom. haha ok cher's here.

in my opinion, no guy is worth getting hurt over. well unless you're REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY SURE that he <3 you and you <3 him. but if he really loves you, WHY ARE YOU GETTING HURT IN THE FIRST PLACE? hmm and i think its STUPID to fall in love with someone based on their looks (well, im scolding myself of course) heh. i feel stupid, confused and utterly and totally disappointed in myself. well, and coupled with those feelings are those of uncertainty and fickle-mindedness. SIGH. being a teenager SUCKS. well sometimes.

i wish i could stay young forever, preserve that innocence that children have, and look at the world with childlike wonder.

yeap, but UNFORTUNATELY, we all have to grow up sometime. just don't know if i'm ready for these kind of stuff.

ok. heavy stuff GONE! now on a lighter note,

TOMORROW SAC DOS HAVE A FRIENDLY (YEA RIGHT!) DEBATE MATCH AGAIN NAN CHIAU HIGH SCHOOL! MAY THE BEST TEAM WIN! :D

so much has been going on, my life feels so PACKED with stress and overwhelming schoolwork. but NEVERMIND, I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THE HOLIDAYS :D

i swear, my best friend knows SO MANY people, it just freaks me out. AHHH. lawls. and she just FOUND OUT TODAY that she knew ALL ALONG. (if that sentence didnt make sense, its because a word is missing) lawls. so i'm currently TRYING (with no avail) to drag myself OFF the computer and go memorise my drama script.. last time i checked, i haven't moved an inch. LOL. and for the record nicole, I DO NOT WAAAANNNTTTT him. gah! seriously!



ok that sounded wrong, but you know... not in that manner. but.. but.. heheh.. haha bye bye

i wish everything could go back the way it was, and i wish i could stop crushing so hard.

life's been a blast till i started my new math tuition, and now EVERYTHING sucks. gah, at least my math is getting better, i think. i miss church, i miss mass, i miss 12.30 mass. lol. sorry, again, only SOME people will get it. gah sometimes i think NO one understands and i just want to scream and shout at EVERYONE. grr. havent got ANY work done. im gnna rush history later D: i can NEVR prioritise.thats what sucks the MOST. ugh. just stinks. to. the. core. had english graded assignment today, and i finished it after like 20 mins and then i proceeded to write to kit mun a ONE PAGE letter in PENCIL complaining. haha before that during MATH i wrote NICOLE a one page letter too. i find writing comforting. it gives me a sense of.. peace? haha i guess.
i wish i knew what you were thinking.
i wish i could STOP thinking about you.

ugh. in case you haven't noticed, i feel like crap.

grr. happy youth day? naah, feeling like crap ugh. i actually enjoyed mass last sunday. lol. going for two masses AGAIN this week D: haha honestly, i think i'm looking forward to mass. gah. whats happening to me!?!?!??!?!? ugh. i just noticed yesterday that _ has small eyes. so now i cannot make fun of nicole for having small eyes anymore. GAH. that just STINKS. =.= heh heh heh. the REASON i'm going for two masses - him. no seriously. haha lets just call him _ for now. haha only my REALLY REALLY REALLY close friends know. i think my blog is dead. gah, i is random. meh. tomorrow its back to school, and HONESTLY, im not looking forward to it. AT ALL. grrrrrrrr. i miss the june holidays. i dont wanna go for math tuition. i wanna have the same freedom i had and free time i had beFORE the stupid math tuition started. i just wanna quit. shit. my brain just cannot PROCESS this stupid math stuff. and i dont need MATH to help me, I JUST WANNA LIVE WITHOUT MATH is that bloody POSSIBLE? yea, i guess? GRRRGAAAHHHHHAHHHHH. TSK. i hate math.

on a side note, P.S. i love you is a SUPER sad book, yes, i cried. its just so sweet.

gah. im having chinese tuition now. can't log on to that stupid boshi100 or wdv thing. haha i lost my username. UGH. cat class starts today and i have to go for 2 masses. joy. LOL. so later when tuition ends at about 10.30 plus, i'm thinking nicole will be calling me and DEMANDING to know where i am. happens EVERY week. lol. after cat class is 12.30 mass :D D: i'm not sure how i feel about that though. gah. super pai seh (those people who don't understand the last sentence bout 12.30 mass, uh. inside info. LOL. but its that thing that got me depressed the past week) oh. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WEAR. to cat class. and NO nicole, i am NOT wearing a dress. i may LET you put eyeliner on me for 6 pm mass today, but it stops at THAT. yesh. LOL. I WANNA GO BACK TO SLEEP. I WANT ICE CREAM. I WANT CHOCOLATE. I WANT BETTER GRADES. I WANT TO QUIT MATH TUITION. and last but certainly not least, i want ......

UGH. FEELING LIKE CRAP GETS YOU DOWN. oh, i wanna go high on air or coke, just like i used to before mass last sunday D: